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I wonder... am I a Lesbian?

Hi, friends. My name Sveta.I'm 18 and I've wondered for a while now weather or not I'm gay. I've had crushes on boys but anytime I think about kissing them it makes me cringe. I had a boyfriend but I had to force myself to kiss him and I didn't like him touching me.

Whenever I see a pretty girl sometimes get really excited, like my heart starts beating fast and I can't help but smile. Another thing that's kind of weird that happened was once I was watching this movie with my dad and there was this scene where these two girls were making out and I started sobbing.

I dream of making love to women and having a girlfriend, but I also want to be sure I'm a lesbian. I don't want to be a lesbian because I subconsciously feel like men don't like me and this is easier, if I'm a lesbian I want to make sure it's because I'm a lesbian and no other reason.

I had an idea that I would have sex with three guys kind of like a two out of three thing to make up my mind, but I kind of want to skip that and just seek out a girl friend.

Sorry this was so long. I just want an opinion. Comment